Monthly Archives: March 2011

True Calling


I’ve been experiencing both ups and downs of my life this past few months.  I have experienced not doing much in work and still I’ve been payed for that.  Then the worst of that, I’ve been promoted.  And yet, I can’t really feel that I’ve grown as a programmer.  I never really learned a lot with the almost three years that I’ve worked.

After I have been promoted, I’ve been given so much work which made me grateful, for now I can feel that I am needed.  But it is also the reason why I always get so frustrated and disappointed.  It is also the reason why I am starting to ask myself whether I should be a programmer or should I wake up and just face the reality that my calling is not here.

I’m confused and afraid.  I want to find that something that could really make me say “this is my dream, this is what I want to do till I grow old”.  And yet, I also don’t want to step out of my comfort zone.  I want to continue doing what I am doing right now so that I won’t put my life in chaos and also to do another stuff that could also make me really happy.

Wish I could smile again just like a child does.  Wish I could be just like a child again, so innocent and pure.  Wish I could be like a child again, who has nothing to worry about.


Let’s Get Physical


For the past months, I’ve been very active in running(fun run,jogging), badminton,basketball,badminton and pop jazz.  Even if I was very busy at work and with those stuffs, I never really got sick.  But after the fire run that we have participated, me, Retchel and Bryan never found a time again to meet for a jogging or what.  I am now just working full-time.  Because of this, my immune system got weak.  I got colds and cough.  boohoo! 

Bry, Chel…Jogging nata ug sayaw2x ug mag badminton…  Hehehehe!



I told bhe2x jaydee earlier that I want to go on a picnic with him.  That I will cook for him for the said picnic.  He already said yes.  The problem now is that, I don’t know what would I cook.

Earlier, I was thinking of making sandwiches, cook fried chicken and spaghetti.  But now, I’m not sure anymore. 😦  The only thing I know is that I want to spend more time with him now before he will go to Bohol to work.